I Think My Star Slowly Fading Away

8th June 2026,, 2019~



Stars in the sky will eventually die once the fuel to engulf them runs out. But to some stars, they will just disappear quietly, vanish from existence. Stars can live for a thousand years, and one day you will never know they ever existed.



I wanna share a story about my star. A person who had been in my life for a long time. We used to be inseparable,, two trouble makers against the world,, too big to care about the look of others. The good days always stay despite everything. The way I would always stand up for them, regardless of right or wrong,, going all out to just exist in the same length of space and time in this life.



Even star is far from reach,, it's always there to decorate the dark,, gloomy night sky. They're the stars of my life because of that same reason. The dull life of mine before was changed with their touch. Suddenly,, the timid girl who only had her own imagination to live with got to be apart in the big adventurous world full of surprises.



Therefore, stars never last until the end of time. Stars are not a wonder being which able to cheat death. Stars will eventually die or slowly fade away with time. They're slowly missing. From my phone notification. From my recent contact. And slowly from my life.



There was a point in my life when I used to think about this kind of stuff over and over again. The 'what if's and seeds of doubt were in front of me from the get-go. Although I believe we all,, humans will eventually lose some connection with others due to several unfortunate reasons,, I still refuse to fully acknowledge it.



I help people to be able to look at their stars properly,, while mine slip away from my grasp. The worst of all is me realising it,, but I can't do anything about it because of my own cowardice to face the consequences of reality. In the end, I can only wish that the star,, that they're just dies out in my space ashinesine brightly in others.

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